Technically today is day 3 of my #ManicEpisodeChronicles but, seeing as how I only started this “blaga” today, I figured I’d label it day one.
It is currently 6am and I still have yet to get any sleep. Being manic brings out a lot in me. From irrational anger to extreme hyperactivity, I am a constantly changing tornado of emotions and behaviors.
For the last three days I have channelled my mania toward cleaning and organizing my home. I tell myself it needed to be done anyway but my husband and children have begun to worry. I have eaten only once in three days, and only then because my children brought my lack of nourishment to my attention. I’ve been so focused on keeping myself healthily occupied that I have stepped into the decidedly unhealthy realm of starving myself. I have written reminders to myself to eat because I know that it is necessary even though I am not remotely hungry.
I just spent nearly 6 hours obsessively catching up on tv shows and movies. I need to sleep, I know this, but my brain refuses to shut up and let sleep come.
I am going to read a book in the hopes that extensive use of my imagination will exhaust my brain enough to allow me to sleep.
We shall see if I am successful.
~Garnet, the Bipolar Cat Lady with Nerdy Mom Powers~
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